Monday, May 7, 2012

Time to get Serious

Well just to start off with I've never written anything like this, so I'm doing my disclaimer now for anyone who might read this. My spelling isn't the greatest, my grammar could use some improving, my opinions on things are my own and may not always be considered to be correct by everyone, my thoughts wander and may not always seem to flow, and also I can have a very weird view about things at times.

Today is a beautiful day, the sun is shinning, the winds are died down, and my house is quiet. For the last month and a half, I've had a constant companion during the day time hours. My sweet husband got hurt at work and was too injured to work, but finally today he gets to go back to work on light duty. It still may four months or so before he gets to go back to work full time, and we both still worry that he may not be able to return back to what he's done for years. But that is a worry for another day, and today is a day to enjoy.

Shortly after getting both the hubby, and the kiddo off to work and school I decided to really kick off my new goal for myself. I was 135 lbs when I got pregnant with my daughter nine years ago, and currently weight 252 lbs. I hate my current weight and have decided to change it. So I did about an hour walk on my exercise thingy and honestly it felt great. I've also started to watch my calories and changed what I'm eating. I want to get back down to my pre pregnancy weight, and know that I have a long road ahead of me. But the results will be worth it. 

Now I'm reviewing the classes I've signed myself up for my other big goal I've set for myself. Going to college and getting my degree in Digital Media and also a degree in Web design. Being out of school for 12 + years I know it's going to take a bit to get back into the school grove, and my placement test scores showed it. Looking at my class list for this fall I've got myself a very full class load but it will be fun. 

I've still got to go out and enjoy the sun and mow my lawn, and kill a few dozen dandelions. But it won't be too bad. Then I've got about a dozen other projects that I need to get to work on. Every time I think about the size of my to-do list my anxiety always acts up, but I keep working on taking it one thing at a time. That's all I can do right now is take things one step at a time. 

People sometimes look at me weird about having such a positive outlook on things. Probably because with everything that I've been through I actually have a few valid reasons to be bitter, or depressed. For years I let negativity effect my life and watched my life go no where. My life never got better because I couldn't see that if I wanted it to get better I had to take the steps to make it better. 

So three years ago I started to take the steps to make my life better. Honestly compared to how my life was three years ago, to where I am now my life is so much better. 

Now for a random thought that I had this morning...

With most people having cable television, and owning a dvd/vcr player and movies,  why do we always hear people saying that there is nothing on to watch? Isn't there always something to watch on television? If you don't like stuff that's on, shouldn't you be able to either put on a movie, or go do something else that gets you active?
Just something that went through my mind as I was working out this morning.